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7/29/2016

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This post was from several years ago.  But the experience was so perfect. I still remember it as if it happenad only yesterday.
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They told me that in Old Sagay, Negros, where a resort called Margaha is located, the Pacific wind is so brute, so harsh by nature. But it is easily tamed by the warmth of the sea and the liveliness of the people there.

I was there last week.  And I can easily tell you that what they said is true. I can tell you too, (and this I swear with my life), nothing in this world can compare to the sweetness of the Negrense dialect.

Last week, on a night deprived of cellphones and laptops, we sat down and listened as they told us many things. About Hiligaynon "balaks" and legends, about Margaha and how it came about.

The story goes that in one of the islands of Negros a long time ago, there lived a rich white girl who fell in love with a poor black native. It was the kind of love that was bound to fail, because it happened at a time when the world was divided into black and white. No one was supposed to defy it.
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But, like in fairy tale stories, the lovers were defiant and swore never to leave each other no matter what.

So very angry were the gods when they learned of this that they turned the lovers into ashes and scattered them on opposite directions of the Visayan sea. Cursed never to meet each other again, the lovers fell silent. But not without passing the curse of color into the places where their ashes fell: white sands on islands where hers fell; dark, almost black, on islands where his fell.

You will feel the love story if you travel across the nearby islands, from Boracay where the sand is ethereal, soft, and white, to Sagay more than 6 hours by bus after, where the sand is blackest, as though the gods themselves wanted it that way for the contrast to be evident.

​When I came to Sagay, and into the resort whose name, Margaha, in honor of the man whose ashes fell there, I felt as though I opened my eyes for the first time.
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The story I heard there was not just about love, but also about suffering and about the fate of people unlucky enough to have been born in another side of life. Like in the Philippines where all wealth is concentrated on the powerful few amid such ocean of poverty. Like in the haciendas of Negros where sugar is sweetest but most bitter to the poor laborers, who work with pay barely enough to keep them living for the next day-
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But the gods were not entirely cruel. It is in the same Margaha where I met national artist nominee and social realist Nunelucio Alvarado, his artist family and his community of brilliant painters called Pintor Kulapol (lousy painters in Negros language, but they're not lousy, I tell you) who work to alleviate this suffering by changing the minds of people through art.
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Nune and his wife
In Margaha they did a month-long exhibit where guests did not only get to see the art of the exhibitors. They also got to participate by exhibiting their own art. The materials, all the "basura" they could find along the coast. Ours must have been the most boring, but it was one that we did in 20 minutes, with only the handful stuff we could find. We painted a bamboo pole in black and listed there, in white paint, all the websites promoting Filipino prostitution. (This is all we could think of in 3 minutes, honestly. Forgive the simplicity.)
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There were so many that we ran out of space easily. But it should have been enough to send the message.
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I have much to tell, but I'm running out of time. My thanks to Pintor Kulapol, to Visayan art, to Maharlika, to artists who use art for change.
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And to the gods for Margaha and his love, for the blackest skin but purest heart, to the love story that was tragic but insightful.
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PS. My friends Japs, Jonna, Jagat, Haresh, and Anthony were also there. The experience would not have been that fun without them.
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YOU don't NEED GO OUT FINDING love. it finds you.

3/6/2016

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You don't need to go out finding love. It finds you.
From its secret 
headquarters somewhere it 
listens to all the sounds 
of the world and 
then decides 
who, where, how. 
When.
It can give birth to 
you, turn you into a 
queen overnight
and then, quietly and with
great skill,
kill you afterwards if 
it wants to.


​
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alpombre

9/1/2015

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Naa na ko sa tunga tunga sa 
akong artikulo dihang 
miabot siya,
nagpahiyom samtang
nangutana kung gusto
ko'ng mosayaw kauban niya.

Sa walay pagduha duha
nibarog ko, giisa ang 
akong kamot ug gitanyag 
kini kaniya.

May nitugtog ug hinay nga
awit, samtang
kining lawak, nahimong 
hardin nga daw misidlak
ilalom sa labing maanyag 
nga bulan.

Apan sa dihang miduko ko,
nakita ko nga buslot diay
akong pajama.

Wala koy tsinelas.
Ug ang alpombre sa salog,

Nganong naa ni dire?
Unsay gibuhat niini dinhi?


—--


I was in the middle of my article
when suddenly he came,
smiling as he asked
if I would like to dance
with him


Without hesitation
I stood up and stretched my
arms to him.


I heard jazz music
in the background. And the room,
it turned into a garden,
glistening under the
prettiest of all moons.


But when I looked down,
I saw the huge tear in my pajamas

I didn’t have slippers on.
And the rug on the floor,


Why is it here?
What is it doing here?

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abi ko'g dili diretso ang dagan sa panahon

9/4/2014

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An interpretation of my favorite poem by Paul Bogaert

Abi ko'g dili diretso ang dagan sa panahon
sa gamay'ng pagbanlas, ang hinay nga hulma
nga siya, gikan sa anino ga kitkit sa langgaw'ng tiil sa langgam,
iyang gitugot nga ang uyamot nga hangin ang mobuhat niining butang.
kung kinahanglan, magpada'g usa ka nilalang
nga maoy mokawat niining lang-at o di kaha 

magtigom ug tina sa hilom.

Nganon'g wa ko man ni makita,


basa ug nabuta sa adlaw, samtang nagtan-aw sa 

hulagway sa imong mga mata. 
nalipay nga sa makausa pa, mabati ang magahi nga yuta,
ang dila sa ibabaw sa ngabil.
nalipay nga gipahinumduman niining braso,
tanang ugat, nga naabli alang sa matam-is nga dugo,
ang pagbalik sa puloy-anan.

Nganon'g wa ko makita kung giunsa


ang panahon mismo maoy nagbuhat sa kinabag-an 

niining tanan ug naghukom
sa dinalian, taliwala niining amok ug akong mga butang
sa pipipila ka kilab, sa iyang kamot, malig-on

dala ang hinagiban, ug lukso

pagarpar ug usa pang

pakpak.

i thought that time would work indirectly

by Paul Bogaert


I thought that time would work indirectly,
with a light erosion, a slow mould,
that he, from the shadow, gnawing at a lukewarm bird’s leg,
would allow a low-educated wind to do the job,
if necessary would send someone
to steal away a space or discreetly collect a couple of tints.

Why didn’t I see it myself,

wet and blinded by the sun looking in the camera
of your eyes,
pleased to once more feel solid ground, tongue on upper lip,
pleased to be reminded of certain muscles, all the veins
reopened for the sweet high of the blood group, the home run,

why didn’t I see how

time itself had done most of the work
and had apparently decided
in the short-term, between the surf and my things,
in a couple of flashes, with one’s own hands, firmly
with the cudgel, and hop and

rap and another

clap.

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EX

8/16/2014

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The vast emptiness of his absence
was enough to turn her into  
a breakaway planet, 
lost in orbit, spinning dangerously 
through a dark, vast universe,
swirling amid fireballs and blazing comets 
on its path. Free, yet 

dangerously free. 

His leaving set a motion series that cannot be 
undone. Like a big bang that can 
only keep on exploding, and 
exploding. One either 
collapses in its power 

or expands. 
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strangr/lovr

3/1/2014

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I’d like to one day 
see you, sit down in one 
place and have coffee with you. 
We don’t really need to talk.
We can sit quietly and be together
without needing to talk to 
each other. How it must be like 
to be with you in silence

Right now we always need to talk,
& you know I’m not a talkative 
person. I have to always SMS or send 
I love you’s through chat messages. 
I have to grow accustomed to 
conversations until 4 am,
or to sleeping with Viber on, with you 
on the other end breathing, 
snoring even. 

But there are other
ways--like I could say I love you
by just kissing the tip of your nose
or running my fingers through 
your long, soft hair 
while you’re sleeping.

Your voice on Viber comforts me.
Still, I wonder what happens 
if we lose our voices or 
if we run out of topics, and 
there is no reason to talk anymore.
How would you even know I exist?
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Amara

1/31/2014

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Amara in Liloan, Cebu, is a silent landscape that watches out to sea. Built more than a hundred years ago with the intent of guiding vessels and fishermen on their journey, the place got its name from a Spanish word that means mooring rope, one used to anchor ships at port. True to its name, the place bears a sense of comfort and domesticity to people (like home), a sense of rememberance almost close to melancholia. I hear that towers like this are home to many legends: ghosts of ancient lovers who have died, of men and women who, like Goa's Donna Paula, bloomed and wilted like roses in stormy sea, forgotten if not for stories passed around in whispers by local people.
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Layag Sug

1/27/2014

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I have not seen this sea, which you 
speak of so fondly every once in a while.

but I notice the slowed-down 
breathing, the long 
pause when you tell stories of 
ancient ones that died, of intrepid 
mariners that once sailed with 
their boats to cross vast 
expanses and trade,
before sailing back to their homes
where their wives and children 
wait for their return.

You are still out at sea 
tonight, while I am here 
hoping you'd reach home soon.
I know where that home is.
But you have to fight to get there.
I could wait for ages
and remain still until 
you're home finally. Don't fret.  
Sail, beloved, wherever that sea 
with its raging currents  
take you.

And when you reach shore one day,
You'll find me there standing,
waiting for you.
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soju dialogues

1/20/2014

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By Ava and Samantha

Ava

Bag-o pa ka naku nakaila
Hot na kaayu ka
Kung ako dili makatulog
Sa imuha tulog jud ko dayun
Ikaw ang gamando
Gikan sa akung pagmata
Dili jud ko matingala
Kung sa kilid sa kama
Naa na dayun ka
Sa akung pag-inusara
Ikaw ra ang akung makita
Kay ang imung botilya
Klaro kaayu sa mata
Ikaw ra lagi
Gihapun soju
Ang ulipon ni Maestra
Senyora Samantha
Viuda de way lisensya
Ako magmalipayun
Kay ako pud imung ulipon

Samantha
Wa jud koy kalibutan 
kung unsa nang imong mga
gipang sulti diha, amiga.
Simple ra man 
ning tanan siguro.
Di ba? 
Nalipay ka, sa dihang
kauban mo siya.
Makatulog kang
malinawon, ug dili na
maghandom pa
sa mga butang
nga angay nang kalimtan
Kung kining tanan
maka palipay ug maka hugka
sa kasingkasing mong
nagsubo karong gabhiona
aduna bay rason 
nganong atong pugngan pa?


AVA
soju ba kaha 
ang imung 
gipuntirya
dihang nagkuyog
mi walay duda
nahibalo
ka sa akung gibati
lagi sayun
ang pagtuki tuki
sa mga gibati
kung soju
lang ang gasulti

Samantha
ang epekto sa soju
ug sa lain pang butang
nga ato nang nahisgutan,
pananglitan—gugma
pareha ra.
ang ako lang 
ika tambag, 
“drink moderately”.
mao sab nay
ingon nila.
inom lang hangtod 
makatulog ka.
ayaw na palabii pa.

AVA
drink moderately
love moderately
unsa pay lain, manang?
buot ba nimu ipasabot
nga sama sa soju
mawala ang hapdos
sa kasakit
inig kabuntag
tungod kay
nawad-an kag buot?
nawala ba pud kaha
o nigawas ang tinuod
drink moderately
peru love moderately?
lahi.

Samantha
dili ba nindot,
nga sa pila ka oras
karong gabhiona
nalipay ka?
traydor ang panumduman
matud pa nila.
motunga lang sa imong
atubangan
maski wala ingna.
ang kalisod pa,
mopuyo kini,
modugay,
ug dili na mobiya pa.
maong ikalipay
ang pila ka oras
o minutong
nakalimot ka.
kung ang kalimot
makab-ot 
pinaagi sa soju, 
o uban pa,
sa ako nang gisulti pa,
buhata ug ayaw na
pag ukon ukon pa


AVA
Kalimtan ang
Gauros uros
Nga gugma
Sa huna huna
Sa pulong
Sa paglaum
Kini makaya buhaton
Niya kung ikaw
Magpaulipon
Kalimtan ang
Gauros uros
Nga gugma
Sa buntag
Sa hapon
Sa gabii
Basta ang sujo
Wa mapugngi
Busa lagi
Dili magpalabi.

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Poem ix

10/18/2013

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Your silence today is a pond where drowned things live
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I went to see raised dripping and brought into the sun.

It's not my own face I see there, but other faces,
even your face at another age.
Whatever's lost there is needed by both of us -
a watch of old gold, a water-blurred fever chart, a key...
Even the silt and pebbles of the bottom
deserve their glint of recognition.
I fear this silence, this inarticulate life.
I'm waiting for a wind that will gently open this sheeted water for once
and show me what I can do for you,
who have often made the unnameable nameable for others,
even for me.

--Adrienne Rich 21 Love Poems, 1978 :::There was a tiny pool of water from last night's rain on the road near our home. Above image shows trees reflected on it. Hope you like the pic.

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